Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Dash]

No, I don't know if the EA is on going, but I suspect it is only with much less contact. Of course she did get a new cell phone, so it could be she's talking to him all night long now.

I will go pick up the book tonight, apparently my local Borders store has it.

I don't know that I would say she chases me down to talk, I mean when she first left she would call me every night and we would talk, then I asked her to stop and she did. She doesn't email me or send me text messages so I really wouldn't call that chasing me down. When she does want to "talk" to me there's no substance to it. Often times she tells me things that my son has done that I was actually there to see, so she forgets I was even there when it happened.

I've asked others about exposing the affair and was told it was probably not a good idea. I wouldn't know even how to expose it or to whom. Her parents wouldn't care, I know one of her sisters knows about it and I'm fairly certain the other one has known about it since the beginning. Who and how would I expose it? I honestly don't believe anyone would care. I think her mother probably knows as well. But then again, to them I probably look like the bad guy.

I actually tried to talk to her dad about it and his answer to me was, "I'm not going to get into it because I honestly don't give a damn. All I know is my daughter wanted to come home for awhile." I said, "Awhile? She has her own apartment." I got no response to that.

I suppose I could always create a webpage and post it all over the internet, but that just seems vindictive.

I did do things in our marriage that I'm not proud of and things I didn't even realize I was doing. You're right, she had a choice and so did I. At least I've began to recognize my short comings as a spouse, I'm not sure she ever will.

Thanks again for checking in T2L. I really do appreciate it more than you can know. It helps a lot just having someone to discuss it with that can identify with me on these things.