TxMom- help I'm still hopeful -#2 post

[TxMomw/2girls]

T2L -

I have been doing 180's and yesterday I was out the whole day but when I returned I was in my office and then we started talking.. it was just talking until I started crying.. which I'm OK with him seeing tears b/c he hasn't seen me cry since the bomb dropped.. I've been happy and moving on 90% of the time with a few backsliding...

I'm just unsure if I want him back but I know i've already said this before too...

I've read, DR, DB, SAA, Tough Love, Torn Asunder, and now for women only... and I do re-read some of these. just some days like today I don't want to "work" at getting him back... just honestly don't know if I could ever trust this man who gave his heart and love so easily to another women... one thing to be dating her, one thing to have an affair but come back and try to work on it, but to be fully in love or what he thinks is love either way - I have been replaced so easily.. I know this is something I can only answer too. time will tell..

I do GAL but I was always that women who had a life before all this, I've always played tennis, had girls weekends, nights out, work out, church etc... I'm planning a trip to visit my girlfriend in LA, maybe Austin too... bought concert tickets that my H would love to go with me and he has made comments about it too... have my Hawaii trip next summer - etc....

I need to detach and when I see him just go back to my friendly happy self in front of him and keep convo brief.. I'm going to try to get through Thanksgiving without much if any contact except text or email.

I will try to keep my head up... anything is possible and can change.

thanks friends...