As for you...congrats on doing so much to improve your life. You really went out and GAL!
It sounds like you have done so much to make things better, it's unfair that you should still hurt inside, though I can relate.
I finally made the decision to try to get on AD's. If anything maybe it will clear my head a bit so that I can figure some other change out.
The other thing is that it seems your ex is still being a jerk and based on that I assume he has made no apologies for the pain he has caused, nor taken responsibility for the joy he has stolen from you. I think that it's so much easier to feel good inside and move forward when the other person is repentant or when something in life happens to show you that this all happened for a good reason, for some larger good.
Maybe try asking God to reveal to you why this all had to happen. I've done this and had moments of clarity (albeit fleeting)
