Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[faithrunner]

Dash, whenever you start to feel down, go back and read your post from 11/06 at 2pm. It was clear and very realistic. I say that b/c as I was reading back through your post to familiarize myself, I saw a post that I had written and it was a revelation to me today! I have moments of clarity, like that one, and I needed to go back and remember what I wrote on these posts sometimes.

That being said, I have lots of moments when I don't feel tugged in H's direction, and it's nice because I use those times to really exude confidence. It has been a year for me and I feel more peaceful and happy moments now, and I never thought I would get to this place. I was telling my best friend the other night that I feel so blessed and lucky in my life, in spite of whatever adversity is going on btw me and H. It was an amazing feeling, like an adrenaline rush.

I think you handled your visit with S perfectly. You kept it calm with W, kept all emotion out of it from your side. And look what happened, she followed you around everywhere! Wanted to smoke with you, plan overnights at her place, etc. If you can continue to detach like that and GAL, you will see success for yourself and your W will continue to notice. Then, you can decide how you feel about it. I am finding that H is becoming more giving, calling a little more, emailing, and frankly it is scaring me to death. I went through the piecing stage once, and it is so much more frightening than this!

I think you are doing great I hope you have a good day, and you are a great dad.