Stillhope - If I were content to have a mediocre lukewarm marriage, do you think I would even be here on this forum? I already have that and have lived it for the past 17 or so years. When sex became an obligatory chore for my wife instead of a way for us to connect and build our love for one another, I began to lose my connection with her.
I spent 10 lonely years grasping to feel any kind of connection (to feel anything at all for that matter). Thinking I could separate sex and love I turned to porn and strippers. Eventually I ended up having an affair and all the while thinking that I could balance my family life and my secret sex life on the side. I never wanted things be that way and I had become something that I hated. I was out of control and what I did was wrong, but it *did* happen because she had no desire for me any longer.
All I ever wanted was to feel that true connection with my wife. If she does not want it with me then I have no choice. I will no longer live a life without passion, it will be with one woman that I love, cherish and care for. I want so badly for her to be *the one* again. If that one woman is to be her, she is the only one that can make that decision, I cannot decide this for her.
Stillhope - If your wife suddenly decided to give you sex again would you be happy if her attitude about it was: OK you can get some tonight. Hurry up and let's get this over with. I don't enjoy this, but I'm doing it for you because you want it and it's just my obligation. Don't expect anything special because you should feel lucky that you are getting anything at all. Hurry up already! ???
