Creeping through no man's land

[ACJ]

Thanks Trusting and Kim.

My S16 ended up staying the whole weekend so that was nice. I didn't see much of him as he was working most of the time but just to have him in my four walls was comforting.

Yesterday he unexpectedly had a split shift. He rang me to say in between shifts he was going to visit a friend but if he got himself back here in time would I drop him back at work. I said I would as it is only 5 mins from where we live by car. On the way there I found out a few things that I didn't think I would ever hear!

S16 asked me if D13 and I had enjoyed the bonfire party at BILs on Saturday night. I said I had but was disappointed (and still v. hurt) that people who used to consider me a friend (and a very good one at that) now completely blank me out. I've partially understood it in the past as whenever I have seen them H and OW have always been present but even on Saturday when he wasn't there (or even invited) they still treated me like a perfect stranger. S16 didn't know H had not been invited. It was D13 who told me as she had been at Hs house just prior to us going and she had told him where we were going for the evening. She also told me that OW was going to a hen night (in her words dressed like a prostitute!). When I was telling S16 these things he then went on to tell me that a couple of weeks ago OW had asked H if he minded if she went out for a drink in a Friday night (clearly he controls her movements just like he tried to control mine [except at the time I didn't see that]). H said he didn't mind and then she went on to say she was going to Ireland for the weekend! I nearly burst with laughing. For one moment I even liked OW and wanted to give her a high five It would seem that life is getting a bit more 'normal' for H.

S16 had originally asked H to pick him from work at the end of the first part of his shift and drop him off at his friend's. He also asked H to bring his wallet with him so that he could get a taxi home after the second part of his shift so that he didn't have to inconvenience H twice (quite thoughtful for S16). H refused b/c he didn't think S16 should be going to his friend's, he thought he should go home and rest between shifts!!!!!!!!!!!!! So he walked to his friend's and then to mine for me to drop him back at work. I know he was using me just a little but considering what he has been like in the past I thought he had been very considerate towards H. There was a time when he would've just done what he wanted and not told anyone. I did offer to pick him up again when he finally finished as it was a horrible night and he didn't finish until 10pm and he had no money for a taxi. As it turns out H did pick him up after all (guilty conscience I think).

I've still heard nothing from my L so out of pure desparation I phoned her this morning. I've heard nothing b/c she hasn't either. I preferred it when H was here all the time shouting the odds b/c at least then I knew where I stood and what was going on.

I'm working from home today as D13 is not well. Must get back to it.