Gyps, I am trying so hard to stop beating that horse. Like you, I understand it is part of the process. I honor that and try not to get stuck in that mode.
And thank you everyone else for such positive post. I did not feel very confident when I posted it, so it makes me feel good to hear everyones support.
It was STBXH weekend. As soon as he got to the house I walked out w/o saying anything to him, but still had a smile on my face. He was visibly upset. DOnt know why. When I got back on Sunday, I walked in with my head high and said "Hope you had a good weekend, drive safe" and then took my dog out back to do his business. Once again, STBXH was very upset with my lack of attention. I felt like - you chose who you want to be with so you dont get both. I had I wonderful weekend w/o you, so why would I want to bring you into my life now? I see his tantrums as having nothing to do with me and find that the more distance from him I have, the more peaceful I feel. Maybe one day he will wake up, but I cant wait for that to happen. I have to continue to find me and my happiness. I feel that at this point I truly am!
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
