I did not send email. Thought he knows what I need as i wrote an email a week ago and it was a nice email.
I think I anm an easy target to blame for everything.He does not think he is to blame for anything. If it drives him away so be it. Nothing I say will help me. I have to get myself to a place of letting go. I cannot be worried about his relationship with kids or OW.
I just wish I was back M. I I I I have no patience and fading hope.
Please tell me this gets better. I still cannot imagine old age without him.
