I am confused and sad etc. Family went to a wedding up north and I went with my mother to our fmily home also up north. My S20 decided to drive us there and then he went on to the wedding. He then left earlier than everyone else to pick us up. One of the reasons i went away was to stop kids worrying about me being home alone.
When we arrived home he was there and he gave me the most evilest look. It seems he tried to talk to kids while he was away and they were trying to say they needed more of him and he was getting defensive. He is so about himself. Of course as I have asked for no contact i did not feel I should say anything.
What to do. I see my C tommorrow again. I feel that if I make contact i go back to smoothering because my head and heart is screaming for him.
I want to explain and be friends . What says i am driving im away.
