So one year ago today I got the phone call from 'someone' at H's office, that he was in St. Louis with HER, not just for business.
One year ago today, right about now, I was calling my sister in Iowa to see if she could take my kids so I could drive to St. Louis, I HAD to know for my own sanity after 5 months of wondering...
One year ago today, I was driving 2 1/2 hours from Kansas City to the central Iowa border, to meet my sister at the state line to take my kids from me, never mind she was already taking care of 3 of her own including a 6 month old...(what a great sister)
One year ago today I drove another 5 hours to St. Louis, stopping only once to get gas, then chickening out a little when I got to town and stopping at Starbucks.
My H actually called while I was in the Starbucks drive thru to tell me he was (they were) going to bed early....(It was 11:30)
Crappy anniversary, crappy anniversary...
Then I got to the hotel at almost 1 am (got a room so I wouldn't look suspicious), and paced around a lap from my room on second floor to his room on first floor, listening at the door every 15 minutes to hear something, until 7 am the next day.
So tomorrow morning is the anniversary of when H actually opened the door to his room so I could walk in and see her under the covers in his bed, with a brand new black light set in the corner, guess they were lucky it was halloween and they were on sale...I was sickened to think they actually brought 'toys' along...
I remember the first thing I thought of when S6 and I went to Disney 5 days later, we got on the Buzz Lightyear ride and it was mostly designed with black lights and bright colors, and all I could think of was H with her...
OK glad I am not thinking about it....
Sorry it was rolling in my brain and I had to let it out somewhere, better here than at my kids or my H....
