About 4 weeks ago, I sent him a cute email,saying thanks for helping me out with the basement, and for doing such a good job with it, and that I appreciated his consideration....in doing it all by himself because I couldn't handle the fumes from the paint. He responded the next day saying he was glad I liked the basement work, and asked if I needed help with moving the stuff back in the basement. He also told me about his cold and that he was working on Saturdays because it was so busy at work.
2 weeks ago, I sent a cute email of 1 squirrel rubbing the back of another squirrel. The email was forwarded by a friend and also said "To all my nutty friends, Have a stressful day". Nothing romantic. I just added a short note saying "Hope you recovered from your cold and that work is going smoothly." He never responded to that email. I was fine with that. There really wasn't any need to respond, but when he didn't respond I did wonder if he was withdrawing again after the sleep-over in Sep.
But perhaps he got reminded of me giving him backrubs, which he absolutely loves and perhaps he thought I was pressuring him. that was NOT my intention at all.
This week, I sent another email of s dog practising a look which said it was unavailable because it was practising a look to get away with anything. I said the email was from our dog. My short note was "Hope you are well, and that work is going well. Been thinking - there are many things I respect you for." I added that last part just to let him know he was appreciated. I wasn't pressing him for anything....
His email response started by saying it was tough for him to respond to my emails for the following reasons.... He said he just wanted to let me know his thoughts.
The gist of the email - I posted this morning. Perhaps, he's been doing alot of thinking about us. He says he struggles with our past problems every single day.
I wish he'd bring down his walls and at least go to counselling with me to sort out his pain and anger, instead of carrying this all this time. I wish he would trust me, and trust God to heal our marriage.
