Well so far so good still, but this is still making me nervous. I keep waiting for another R talk and that puts me on edge.
I'm on my way to town now to see a movie with a friend. H even acted relatively interested in my plans, asked the name of the friend I was seeing, which movie etc. He's acted interested in the things I've been doing today in general, and called me little again. He heard me singing in the shower and asked me what I was singing...
I just don't want to get to another point where he panics and says the D word. I'm really scared of going through one of those conversations again. Every single action over the last nearly week has shown affection and even slight bits of romance, but I have been wrong so many times before. I am being so careful not to say anything remotely future-oriented, not to discuss living arrangements, and not to act overjoyed by his seeming new affection for me. I just wonder if there will be a point where H will say something positive to me or whether he still doesn't want to give me false hope. There's still an elephant in the room in terms of MC, spending the holidays together, living sitch etc...
I really hope that things will remain nice and easy when I get home tonight...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
