Single parenting and dating again.....

[~Sol]

Weird dreams kept me in a deep sleep last night - there was a sand storm that came outta nowhere, I was in a deserted part-time airport having a picnic style siesta there, I was driving a 4x4 truck that was ridiculously high off the ground at 16 feet with my daughter, and the strangest episode was traveling in a strange craft with yellow lighting that enabled you to see your skeleton just like an x-ray right there in front of you - which was really vivid and I could even see where I tore my tendons in the dream. Now, what does this all mean? Haha, I have NO CLUE!!!!!

But I have been dog-tired last couple of nights and my body just shuts down telling me that that's it - no more wakey-wakey, time for bed!!! I guess my main concern is that I am looking for spiritual answers about this life, and what I should be doing to improve everything about my life. I am struggling hard to focus on the solutions and not the problems, which drains me of wasted energy anyway, as I have a tendency to worry - I think many people do. The good thing is that I am now able to channel my worries into something productive, like going out last night and just laughing and having a good time. Laughter truly is one of the best medicines that doctors just don't prescribe!

So today I am visiting a friend's baptist church. I think it's regular baptist and not southern baptist, judging from the people I have already met there, but I'm not really sure. It's a huge congregation of about 2,000, so it should be interesting to go today and I'm actually more open now and looking forward to it. I do have a ton of questions/issues about church that I need to sort out with a pastor and I hope to meet with one today, but the main thing is that I am surrounding myself with positive people. I do believe that one can lead an improved life by following the teachings of Christianity. It's just sad to see that hypocrisy is rampant in many Christian churches which turns Christianity off to many people, as it did me (the Bible even warns of that). But I'm happy to see that this church has many regular everyday folk that I can relate to. Maybe I'll run into a terrific gal there?