He is thinking "we are ok". He is on this "stupid -we will be OK mode, dust off and move forward- mode". It's tempting to do the same. But I will get through to him somehow. I will MAKE him see what we are up against to.
Real kiss at the stairs? I dont think so. It was a real sweet kiss back then, I think he kissed me at the back of neck or something, but yesterday he wanted a ..french kiss. He was looking for a chance when the kids would not be looking to hug me all day...
And I dont think he left frustrated because of me denying that. He left because there were soccer games on TV. That's my guess...
Btw, my D asked him to "stay and sleep by mommy" showing him "his" pillow and my son asked him " "why did you stay so long today dad?".
"My mission statement" did sound weird. The last few weeks I have been torn and sad and laughing and crying all together. It has been difficult to cope. I didnt know where to focus, on my sadness or on the "turn around" that was all I had been wishing for, for 8 months. I had to find a way to handle things Cory. I know you probably dont understand being a DAM and all. But I decided I will do what Sara once posted, I will look for the good things from him and about him (it has worked before), I will invest time and effort, I will allow myself to feel excited and happy and I will pray things turn out fine for me.
So, until next weekend I am back to separated land... K
PS He got at least 60 phonecalls yesterday due to his nameday, he mentioned each and every name of the caller just to make sure I knew who he was talking to. He left the phone "on" on the coffee table, etc. So, that is his way of reassuring me but it's so different than what he had been doing (the exact opposite)and he is trying to tell me there was no other woman? Yeah right!!!
Every person that called him was asking him if he still works so much and he kept saying "yes, I've gotten used to it"...(WRONG ANSWER!!!!)
