You seem to be compairing your life with your ex's.And that seems to be keeping you back.Your life doesn't have to measure up to your image of his life.So he has what you think is everything and you have nothing.That's not fair to you.You have forgotten your worth.
You have more than you think.But if you keep compairing your life to his your not going to be happy.
With a little effort I'm sure you can focus on those pockets of warm water and expand on it.Remember what you focus on expands.
Later Friend Briget
The grass is always greener over the septic tank... Erma Bombeck
Treat hate with Love... DR. Martin Luther King