Today I feel like a failure. In the game of life my ex has won and I have lost. I'm not feeling bad about this. It is just pure objective fact.
He is surrounded by friends and family, a romantic relationship and now a child. He has plenty of money and a successful career.
I am poor with no career, no romantic relationship, my family lives in another state and my friends are cool, but busy living their own lives.
So looking at this what do I see? I see that maybe he was right. Maybe I just wasn't good enough. I didn't meet the grade. Maybe I will never amount to anything. Maybe I will keep trying, but just never actually succeed.
Being thrown away and abandoned zapped me of so much life energy. I often float between places of a complete loss of motivation and boredom/loneliness.
WL,
I wish I had the right words to help you out of this maze you are lost in right now... It is just temporary... I promise things will get better...
As for you exH "winning".... I do not think really "winning" is about money, career or friends... Rather, it is about who you really are.... Is your exH a better person than you? Does he have more character or integrity than you? Do you think people really admire him for his actions in your M?
As for your career and success, as long as you are alive, there is still a bright future.... If you want to find your avocation, look around.... Research several career fields that interest you... If you do not have the money, take out student loans.... Find your calling... Your passion..... Your dreams are waiting to come true....
As for being good enough, I believe you are special in God's eyes... He created you... You are valuable... Regardless of what lies Satan attempts to tell you...
As for you being thrown away and abandoned, I know that feeling all too well... I was thrown away and abandoned by my VERY best friend... The woman I loved with all of me.... Oh, yeah.... She was also my W of over 12 years.... It is impossible to put my feelings into words...
I pray God gives you strength and peace during this tough time...
Take Care,
RMG
Last edited by RMG77739; 11/09/0803:54 AM.
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"
