God I'm tired. Hears a update

. the accounts are seperate but i still pay for the insurance and the cell

. she might have a boyfriend, and when we ran into eachother the first week of Oct she now has friend who she hasnt tld she is married

. we had dinner last sat. we laughed and talked for 45 in when she asked if i was dating a certin girl because she herd I wss. I told her she is a friend ad infact she coud takto her the only woman i want in my life is my W.

. since this has all started W has told me 3 times she was going to file, but she hasent. I am very afraid she is waiting for me to file so she can contiue to blaim me for this. she acts single.

just a update. I am so very lonley. i have male and female friends who i spend time with, but I wake up a lot latley and feel the loss of the one I wanted to grow old with and have afmily and I feel a hole, even after 11 moths.I want t changeur dynmic, but I dont knw how.