You think little miss "I have to be true to myself" choked those words out just to appease you?
For what?
It's conviction. Do you know that conviction is the state of being convinced? She knows. Something has caused her to be able to admit to herself, and now to you, that she had an affair and that's why you asked her to leave.
It's a process dude, and all I'm telling you is that this is proof for your logical mind that she is IN one.
It does not change your path one iota.
Just keep your eyes open.
That's all I'm saying.
Listen and watch.
Ok, I thought you meant she was 'convicted' of having an affair.
Truthfully, I was surprised she called it an 'affair'. And it's still going on.
Also, God sent a messenger today. Got a call from a band booster friend of W who was looking for her. She needed to borrow a band t shirt. I told her to come over and I would give her mine. I've met her before, and she knows me as a nice, decent guy. she's my age, not W's.
We were talking at the door and she was asking questions about W, and I came out and told her that W wasn't living here any more. She said she knew W was wanting a divorce and had told her some months ago she was looking for a place.
I told her that I asked her to leave and why. I also told her my role in the mess of our life and that this is the third time she's done this.
I said to her that I don't want anyone to think badly of her, that I wasn't doing well and was lost in depression and alcohol.
She told me she was divorced, and that she knows how a lot of women just can't deal with problems in a relationship, especially when depression and substances enter them. I said 'yeah, I know that now. W never fought for me she just let me flounder.' She said 'My husband never fought for me either, but what I came to see was that my life was about my kids, not him. Not what he was doing, not what he was saying. It's about giving my kids a safe and stable life. So you need to focus on that too. Your happiness doesn't depend on another person'
I needed that message today. Something told me to tell her the situation. So she could tell me I'll be all right and so will my kids.
