LS,

I think you need begin at the beginning. Take the focus off your H and your sitch.

Think about you. Focus on GAL.... Whatever you have an interest in..... Focus on improving yourself..... Keep up the PMA.....

I wish I could help more... Hang in there... It really will get better....

Take Care,

RMG

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"