Oh beautiful Gypsy, this just sucks so bad. I am sooooo sorry (((HUGS)))) You have handled everything with such grace, now it is time to step back and let the daogs (Ls) fight it out. No need to get into that mess.
Scream at the top of your lungs when you feel the need to, call him every freakin name you can think of, let it all out because he is that and more. Then, find your beautiful children and love them. Sing the happiest song you can think of and dance! Try not to let him have so much power over your emotions (and this is so hard because I am right there with you). You are the one who has grown through this....look at your wonderful list and how much you have accomplished. What has he done.....run away from problems, abandonded his children and avoided the true work of finding inner peace. No, sweety, when this is all done and over you will see the blessing it was. Sometimes I think we want our WAS back so badly because it was comfortable and fimiliar. This stuff is down right scary. Yet, I think because of our growth, we will be the ones who find the happily ever after while they continue to live with unhappiness. Just my opinion.
Im thinking of you and hope you have found a more peaceful place today.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
