It cracks me up when I hear XW talk about her big family (relatives), all good solid homes. Followed close behind by the troubles we are facing as a result of the D. Considering what we have learned and know, it's hard to not state the obvious.
Wow, it's good you have a sense of humor about that irony. Beams in eyes...wish they weren't so literal sometimes! Need to get you a cute bag of bricks to carry when you're around her.
I do have to say I'm glad H isn't putting on a hypocrite's face and going through motions without real intent. It's one of the reasons I try to not bug him about it. I think you're right that true repentance is a high price to pay. And you can't do it for anyone other than yourself.
For me too, forgiveness is not so tough (I'm grateful for that). I can talk myself through the pain, and most of the fear. Trust--well, it goes back to the fear. Maybe I won't have the glittery, shiny, dream marriage I want in this life. But I'll still be happy and do the best I can with what I have.
