Nothing To Fear!! God is in Control.

[kissak]

Yes Mishka, we do need to lean on each other. I am trying to be careful. Im going to just keep it like friends. I am pretty good at that now. I have stopped having expectations from him and I am around him enough that we are like good friends. I just have to put aside all the pain and hurt he has put me through. He has asked me for forgiveness many times. I know he is sorry. I am just going to enjoy a nice dinner with someone. He said he was actually looking forward to it. I am somewhat dreading it because I do try to keep my heart guarded. I have stopped expecting him to just pull his butt out of that dark place. I think it will still be a while, but dinner is a nice place to maybe start.

I have done alot of thinking the last few weeks about things and if I really could stand him coming home. I honestly like being by myself. Of course I do get a little lonely every now and then, but then I find plenty to keep me busy!!


I dont want no drama trauma!! So hold me up guys!! I can say it is sooo nice not to have the OW taking up space in my brain anymore. That is such a relief. I didnt realize how much I did think about her and my H. Sucks! Now I am getting adjusted to thinking more about me.

I can honestly say, it seems hopeless in the beginning, but really I can say the last time I cried over this.

I am doing so much better.