In my head I know every logical thing I have to do. I know that getting a life will absolutely be the key. I am thankful that the desire to ring and see him has gone. At least i am not fighting those demons. What I am fighting is the emotional side and my imagination just runs wild. I think of him with this other woman etc and it drives me to being physically sick and yet I cannot put my finger on what he can give her that i desire ! Insightful ? Thoughts
It is Saturday here and my mum and I are going up to our holiday home 5 hours away for a couple of nights. I have organised someone to run the shop and feed the cat.
Next Friday night I have accepted an invitation to a cocktail party and the following night a BBQ. I will need to buy some new pieces of clothing. I know it is going to be rough but i have my sleeping tablets in place and I have set a regular Tuesday appointment with C. I have my very tired support systems in place.
I read your list every morning SPM
I am attractive, I am intelligent and a nice person. I have a big heart I have lovely grown up kids- I am a good mother and I am fine finacially and I have my own business. I am a good catch. Someone out there is going to find a lovely piece of gold when they do.
Ha Ha that sounds so big headed of me - but good. dont feel like smiling but writing that made me.
