(((lisa))) thanks so much for your loving words! my thumb is indeed bandanged now. I'm feeling much better, I went to yoga class last night (silently weeping through most of it, but it was a good kind of silent weeping) and then instead of biking home as I have every single other time I've been, I asked my yoga & cello friend to go out for a tea with me, and we sat and hashed over my jury, and I felt so much better!!
Can you suggest some slightly different behaviors I should try to experiment & observe? I feel like I am really good at what I have been doing, but maybe in a rut or afraid to put myself out there and get hurt. even in a little experimental way. dkfjdlkjsf!!!
maybe I need to go back to practicing my flirtatiousness...
