It's weird. Last night I let go. Maybe it was the repeated emotional lashings or realizing it was over or knowing what I wanted.. but it ended.
I not holding onto the empty husk my marriage became. I don't hate him either. I don't agree with how this ended. He was miserable and unhappy. Nothing I could or would or be willing to do could or would change his mind.
I want to have a positive relationship with the father of my.. our children which may come in time. I have forgiven him without thinking about how or why I should. What he does now that before would have caused hurt.. doesn't or hopefully won't.
Ack.. I went off on a tangent. You can let go in anger, cling frustration, attach with desperation.. it's a choice and where you are at the moment. In the end it comes down to where you want to be.. to where you feel best.
