You are a bright guy. You know what has worked in the past. You know that when you walk she has followed, (albeit apparently unhappily). Your W seems to respect the tough love approach and walks all over you if you show weakness, (as opposed to fairness).
I know what you are having to get ready to do is scary- real F'ing scary....but you got a pair - use them.
That woman will follow. She followed you back to Australia. I think she loves the way you 'cave man' .......although she can't admit it as that might give you free rain to turn into the person you were before all this started. She has learned that by behaving badly she gets an improved version of you.
I also say again.....she thinks she knows exactly how to just keep you on board enough.....she throws you just enough affection and love. I think your 'tough' attitude would throw her into a loop again and get her running back much quicker than anything else. At the moment she is testing your boundaries.....just like a naughty child.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength