LOL. \:D

Thanks, Chazz, I needed that.

Your CW working with Asperger's and HFA patients? Wow, it is a small world. My S7 has AS, and W has decided he inherited it from me. Never mind that I've already had myself screened by specialists in UNC's TEEACH research program -- and was cleared. But, no, my arrogant STBXW, an RN and a lay-expert on AS/HFA, still thinks they, the professionals, are wrong and she knows more than they do. Yeaaah, riiiight.

And you're right, I know for myself I will be better off in the long run. It is just so painful to me to see the loss this will be to my S's. They are losing their home, their intact family, the continuity in their lives. The house represents the haven they've know nearly all their lives, and the legacy of a location they could have looked back upon with fondness one day when they're all grown. Now that is all broken. They will struggle some day to even remember the home we built for them let alone what it looked like. The very foundation of their early lives will be unbuilt, with no anchor to hold their memories.

Yes, they will survive and adapt. I know that. But it pains me to think this security of continuity was all thrown away because of the utter selfishness of their parents. Such a waste. It's so unfair to them.

As for myself, I came to the conclusion that Jesus Christ held no real property, and lived the life of a rolling stone. I should try to minimize my dependence on material possessions. I should accept a life more transient, and out of my comfort zone.


Me: 49
WAW: 47
S11, S7
Years Married/Together: 17/18
Bomb: 6/15/07
Separation: 7/6/07
D: 4/3/09

Real love is a decision.
Marriage is a commitment.