I hear ya. I'm gonna be honest with myself here. Chasing after this woman will lead to what I already know to be another bad relationship - and I like not having any diseases I can prevent. I wanted to fill a void that I thought I needed to fill - which just opens up more problems. I don't think it's going to happen anyway since I get frustrated just thinking about it. But I am plugging myself into church life - I just came back from a meeting at a friends baptist church - good everyday hard-working people that I met tonight. Heck, it was one of the few churches where I felt sincerely welcomed.
I don't really know what has changed in me, but I have this strong urge to just get back to God - and in a serious and diligent way. I'm taking this slow but steady, and making it my main focus at this point in my life. I haven't prayed this much about anything in years, so it's a welcome relief and it's also helping me to see relationships in a different way.
I know that I am following the desires of my flesh, which is what got me in a bad marital relationship that should never have happened. I'm not going to make the same mistake - I honestly believe that. The more time goes by the more I am getting detached from this person.
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~
