Yeah, A has got it going on right now. But I'm leery of his sitch because me and the W have been at that point before. The best thing about his sitch is that he has this place and I only found it now. So he may be successful.
I don't know if I'll LRT or not; will have to play it day by day. I just want off this ride, ya know? I still hold on to the dream of a united family; but I think it's just that, a dream. I really don't want her, just the idea of family. It's tough!!
I've been a little emotional today; just thinking about the reality of it all. Thinking about what we are going to go through; but I'll God guide me and see where he takes me. I know that I'm going to stand up for my kids. I don't want to keep her out of their lives; I just know that right now she's in no shape to give them her full attention like I can. If she works on herself, who knows what the future may bring. I just know her and right now ain't her time.
