I've calmed down and eaten lunch and feel much better now. Lol. The power of a good panini!
I texted hubby:
I'm not trying to pressure you. But it is a commitment you made and I don't understand why you keep putting it off ya know? But it's okay. I trust that you will go when you are ready.
Hubby texted back:
I just try to finish one project before moving on to the next because otherwise I won't finish anything.
I replied:
Ok Bebe. That's fine with me.
And it really is because at least he is communicating with me instead of getting defensive and upset. So many things have changed in our relationship since the split and things are going so well for us, possibly better than when we were engaged. So even if he waits it does not matter to me. The timing will be right when he does go and it will all work out. I'm certainly going to drop it. He is a good man and when he is ready he will go, just like I said. I'd rather him focus on getting a job anyways because then I can move away!
I'm just a firecracker and when something happens I respond instantly but when I take a step back and think I usually realize that there was no reason to get so nuts in the first place. My six sessions with IC are almost done and in a way I am glad. I am learning a lot but each session I am seeing her thinking is way different than mine and just because she is a professional does not mean she is right 100% of the time, she is still human. So I will glean what I can for now and then move on.
