TX I know exactly what you are talking about...had those same thoughts and wants...I wanted so many answers to so many questions... My H seemed happy too...he bought all new clothes, a BMW sports car, new hair style, facial hair, lost weight, just seemed that he had rid himself of all of his problems...namely, ME Now he tells me he wasn't really happy...but because of all that he had done he had to at least act like he had done the right thing! I know what you mean, wanting to call and talk about how you feel and the why's...the problem is this...as much as we NEED to release these things...they don't WANT to hear them...and it really does no good...especially as "new" as you are in this...It will make him feel more pressure, more guilt, and want to avoid you even more... I did this a few times and it gained me nothing...until about 2 years in...the second divorce filed...I found out where he was living and visited to have him sign the divorce papers...I layed it all out...the 2 years of pain and suffering that I had endured just bubbled out for a few hours...did he act as though he cared?...no...wouldn't even let me in his apartment to use the bathroom!...took me to Starbucks! But a few months later he moved back to town...was it something I said...I probably will never know...I don't bring up those episodes with him now...it is over and past...and looking back now does me no good...moving forward is where we are now...
You will get there...just keep the focus on you and the kids...find things that make you smile and do them...take up a hobby...go to funny movies...take walks...H needs time...MLC is obvious here...but that is no guarantee he will come out of it and come home either...so what it is really doesn't matter...it is what you do that matters...
