Just when you think that things are going great, this huge black cloud forms.
We got in such a huge fight today, I can't even type.. To make is short he is just so clueless to what I do, I can't even stand it. He's asking me to do something at the last minute when he was supposed to take care of it early this morning, and im supposed to get S5 out to the bus. I find S2 outside with no jacket on after he has been so sick, I was so mad. But he somehow blamed me, even though I was inside sending a business doc out for him... then he goes with the swearing and name calling... He's got like a split personality.
Its been horrible here all day, he just left to go do a job for a couple of hours... thank goodness.. I guess I should just be responsible for everything that goes on here.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Hey, Tal, I'm sorry to hear about the latest. I do hope things are better today. (((((((Hugs)))))))
I understand why you got upset when you saw S2 outside w/o a jacket, especially after he had just been sick. Things like that really get to me, too. I don't think our H's see it the way we do. I can tell you that my H's thinking is, "Let him be. It'll be good for building up his immune system." Umm, ok, doctor! Still doesn't ease my fears of not wanting our son to get sick. DAM.
When your H starts to get angry, what do you typically do?
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
Just when you think that things are going great, this huge black cloud forms.
We got in such a huge fight today, I
Hey tal I hope you are feeling better today. Just my little tiny input..."fighting" (as long as it is not violent or in front of the kids) is not all that bad. Ok I am looking at it from the other side of the fence. (Ya know the grass is always greener?) At least there is communication. At least feelings are being expressed. Ya see in my sitch "Not Fighting" is the problem. I just can not get mad at my wife. It may sound funny but I wish I could. Instead we just exist. Don't get me wrong.. Things are better attitude wise than before but still. I wish she would do something that made me mad instead of just hurt me. It's hard to explain but when you do argue He knows you are not happy and you tell him why. You know he is not happy and he tells you why. You both "Rock the boat" and then hold on and see what happens In my sitch.........we both just exist....We both are unhappy... be both know something is missing. But neither one really wants to "rock the boat" so nothing gets done.. Do ya know what I mean??
Dr LOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Things have cooled down. Tuesday was S5's birthday dinner out with the family... He's a big 6 now. Unfortunately we started arguing on the way there, About something stupid, but of course I was the bad guy, always am. I just ignored him because I didn't want to ruin S6's night.
The dinner went well, my family was there and S6 had a good time.
These last 4 or 5 days I hadn't been feeling well, I did go back to the dr. and he's giving me a heart holster to wear for 24 hours to see why my heart keeps skipping a beat. I don't go for that until next wk. Then I have Xmas pics tomorrow, next wk I have school teacher conference and next wkend is S2 birthday party , which the day before they have another party to go to, then thanksgiving then one wkend off, then its off to Disney.
Too much to do in a short period of time. Does anyone know the name of the herbal medication to help you sleep? I had the dr. give me something in the mean time, but I would rather go another route.My blood pressure was good 102/50.. cholest. was good 162.. so other than that im healthy, so I think this thing with my heart is nothing.
Sometimes I just wish H just could be a little softer and not so abrupt and harsh. Im not like that, only when I am treated that way. I don't know guys, im worn out. We had such a crappy summer with him gone, now that he's home more, its just more of the same.
Somethings gotta give.
Thanks for the warm wishes everyone.
Love to all of you.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Still doesn't ease my fears of not wanting our son to get sick. DAM.