Hi glam- I agree that this takes time and patience plus so much more...everything from selflessness to stupidity. Sometimes I wonder if I have enough perseverance to see this through...and sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me because I just don't give up and move on. Thoughts run through my mind like my H isn't my perfect match...I could surely find someone out there that would be more compatible and certainly more committed...but I do love my H and I want him in my life...not to mention that I believe in marriage vows. When I feel that my H and I are progressing, I am fine but you know how it feels when you have any kind of set back. Thoughts of "why am I doing this?" and "Am I crazy?" run through your mind.
I sometimes get so frustrated and lose hope...maybe it is my history...my first H had some kind of MLC and ended up married to his OW. Maybe it is my non-religious upbringing causing me to have a lack of faith. Maybe it is just my personality which has always been filled with self-doubt. I have admiration for so many of the people here who continue to have hope and faith even when their spouse gives them very few signs of hope.
Yes glam, I am getting positives. My H doesn't want to let me go and sometimes he can even pretend that we have a normal M (you know what that is like). We do have the occasional sleep over even which is nice...BUT how do you keep yourself from wanting more?
Today I am struggling...I can tell my H is backing off again after the events of Monday. I haven't heard from him since Tuesday afternoon. I have resisted calling or texting knowing that I need to let him come to me. Sometimes I don't understand why this is so difficult and takes so long.
