Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Dash]

Thanks for all the support guys. I really need it and appreciate it.

The strangest thing happened last night.

The dog starting barking like mad at something outside (probably a raccoon) so I went out to see what was going on. I now live in a heavily wooded area so who knows what was out there, but I didn't see anything.

Anyway, I stood on the front porch for a few minutes just listening to the rain and suddenly I felt at peace. It was an instantaneous thing that just "hit" me. Maybe it's just my body's way of saying "enough". For the first time since she's left I feel like everything will really be okay.

No anger, no hurt, no missing her, just peace. I woke up this morning thinking that feeling would be gone. Much to my surprise it wasn't. I still feel like everything is going to be just fine. And for some reason, I feel like things between she and I are going to work out.

Maybe I'm only fooling myself, but there seems to be so much clarity in my mind at this moment. I know it's going to take a lot of hard work, but right now, I'm up to the task.

As I said, maybe it's only me fooling myself, but I hope not. I really have no expectations other than everything is going to be okay.

Scotsman, I read your thread last night. I'm so very sorry that you're having to endure this pain, I wouldn't wish this sort of turmoil upon my worst enemy I don't think. I wish I had something to offer you in terms of advice. All I can offer is the same as you offered me. Let us be your sounding board when you need to vent, when you're frustrated, when you're hurt, when you're angry. And know that we will be there for you as much as possible.

I'm not a religious person, but I do believe there is something greater than ourselves within the clockwork of the universe. Perhaps this is the direction we're supposed to take.

I really hope this feeling lasts. I don't want to let go of it. It's like being "high" without having to resort to drugs or alcohol to get there.

I hope all of you have a great day. Each of you will be in my thoughts as I make my way through my part of this reality.

Dash