Oh, and I've been able to get to a place of peace regarding our Church. My faith is so precious to me, and I have struggled a lot with H's unwillingness to go through the process required to return to full activity. Honestly, I think he just doesn't want to face it. He'd rather just forget it all and move on. But there are still consequences that have to be met on that level, and he has yet to decide to face them.
For a long time, this ate at me, because I believe my marriage is meant to be for eternity, beyond this life, and that requires continual effort on both our parts. At this point, he is not worthy of that blessing.
I have finally accepted that it is his choice. It affects me and our children, of course, but it is entirely up to him. I just keep hoping and praying that someday he'll feel it's important enough to him to do something about it.
