Yeah, I guess the lack of update does say a lot. Things are still really good overall \:\) .

I occasionally get sideswiped by panic that he *could* still be cheating on me (though it's happening less and less...don't know if I'll ever get rid of it completely). I don't bring it up with him, there's a lot more going on in the "trustworthy behavior" column than the other with him right now.

I know he still talks to OW fairly often...he claims he speaks more with her love interest (WIERD). I know he's not looking for ways to get out of town to connect with her because he's not taken a work trip to her state since January. He does have to make a ten day run just before Thanksgiving, and I hate that, but don't feel like I have grounds to whine about it. He does need to go get the work done, and he's planning on a grueling work schedule, so hopefully no play time.

Reality is: I don't think I'll ever fully trust him again, I know he is capable of the ultimate betrayal. But I'm glad for what I do have and I'll keep working on myself for as long as I live.


Me-36
H-36
3 young children
Married-14y