Build a new M..that's the key. Forget the past, have a beginners mind..a new start.
John..this is not in defense of FG but I was like you when I first came into newbies..FG was the 1st to post to me..and to be honest I thought WTF because I had NFC. If you really know Cory then you will "get" him. If you read enough of him then you will "get" him.
He will open eyes!!
His "do work" is right along DB lines..doing work is about us the LBS..it's not about the WAS..IMO anyway..
I've found that certain people, who have different writing styles, take me longer to "get" than some others..as an example FG..it took me a while but I get him..Gypsy...sometimes I get it right and sometimes I don't..they both work with me to make sure I get what they are saying..it's all good..
and John..I also have the same (expletive) moments you have..we all do..