Journaling........

Ok so I had this dream. I meant this dream was in High definition techno color.........
In this dream I had an affair........I felt so guilty. You see I do know the person that was in the dream. I not only felt guilty around my Wife I did not want see that "person" at work today...

But Yes I know it was only a dream.

So here is what I am planning for my "date" in 14 more days...

We are going to our time share. I am going to get there first. I want it to kind of be like she is coming to "my house". It may be raining (I hope) because there is a fireplace and I think that would add to the atmosphere. I am planning in just having light snacks the first night and margaritas.. I am going to bring some board games to play. And I am just planning on having a good time. What ever talking she wants I will go with the flow. I WILL NOT BRING anything up R wise....The next day there is an Indian casino by there and I thought we could stop by there for a little while, (neither one of us has been there. ;\) upon returning to our time share. Sometime later that evening I was planning on giving her a surprise of a bubble bath complete with candles and maybe rose peddles in her bath.(And a rubber ducky) I would draw the bath light the candles and maybe have some nature sounds playing in the bathroom. I will have a glass of wine ready for her. I would then lead her to that bathroom with her eyes closed. When we got there I would tell her just to take the bath and relax. She has not done that in years. I would then tell her to let me know just before she is ready to get out because I will have a towel in the dryer getting warm for her when she gets out, (I am going to find a little bell and have her ring it when she is ready) I will tell her I will be in the other room and to call me if she needs more wine. And then I would turn and leave her there. \:\) AND I will go watch T.V or something.. NO expectations....No other real plans.. Just kind of make the rest up as it comes along....

I think my attitude will be a major part in not making it seem like I am expecting anything or putting pressure on her. I am not...
I am really looking forward to just getting away and not caring about anything. I am tired of being a "responsible adult" I want to play............Now when I say "play" I do not mean have sex... I mean just.....play...have fun. The little boy in me wants out.........

Dr LOve


And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know