Surrendering to hope

[istherehope]

And hmmm

He asked me how long I would be staying at my friend's house, and I wasn't sure what to say...

I want him to invite me back directly, so I don't know how to address this. I said only "I am flexible, but at least through tomorrow night." Then I said I was having fun there, which I actually am.

Then the conversation went on to be joking about silly things, and that's where it's at...

Help! What do I do? I do need to go to the house this weekend to get things no matter what, and I do want to spend time with him, but I want him to suggest it. If I just show up, then I am potentially pressuring. If he has asked me, then perhaps it will be a more positive experience as he does not need to feel as though I have forced myself on him.

I am actually a little bit nervous about staying in the house at this point though, as it seems to keep leading to bad R talks. I'm having a really hard time envisioning myself hanging out there, which is a bizarre feeling to have.

Ugh,
ITH