Guys you truly are wonderful people - H4H - yes the divorce is final - I asked her if she was thinking to "slow it down" and take it easier - and she said she could never do it - her crazy reasoning was this: if we go back together, and she had a relation with somebody else, it's ok because WE WERE DIVORCING, so she feel better, otherwise is going to look very bad - looks like she was cheating - and "obviously she was not". She says she doesn't miss me, but she misses a lot us as a family (??) I have been GAL for sometime, I met many nice people, and some very interesting girls, probably too young for me - I put myself a lot into work, and this is showing some unexpected results - I got some nice offers in different places, and I am probably going to have to move, and this freaks me out a lot because is going to mean the end of the relation with my kids that I love and miss incredibly. But if I stay close to home I am going to have to give up to the opportunities and be the "loser" my EX so often told me I was - while the truth is I was following her across the country for the sake of the family and I missed tons of opportunities - obviously she would NEVER follow me, so case closed. Last evening I called home too say goodnight to the kids, those are my daily 5 minutes I wait for the whole day, exW says that the kids are eating and she will call me later. She never did - I waited... and waited, then I called back when it was around bedtime - the kids where already at sleep - I got mad - she said I was "blowing things out of proportion", they got busy doing things and just they forgot to call me back - and I shouldn't make a big deal out of it - Well, it is a big deal for me - because I don't think they should forget about me while I am waiting at the other side of the phone - I felt very lonely, again. Good things I have you - unfortunately I have so little time to spend on the computer - love you all
