Hey John, sorry to break it to you man. You aren't made of granite. You are a flesh and blood mark one mod zero human being and as such you sometimes are in a funk. When that happens, sometimes the little ones can give you a boost or at least be a catalyst.
I'm not sure if Kalni was having a little slip there, or if that is more a reflection on my state of mind, but, I read her reply as finding a bunny or someone soft and cuddly
The W went to Vegas over the weekend with her new mister wonderful and that really cemented in my mind that it is virtually certain that things are over. Now, I'm really starting to move on, to construct a life with my kids that is of my design without her input.
So, don't sweat the process. It takes time to decouple.