Sol, I just wanted to add to the above post. When you get out there and make good things happen, better things will start coming your way! Tonight, I went to my first new Christians group and I was the only one who showed up! My commitment to attending meant that I had a wonderful 1.5 hour talk with the group leader, who is willing to meet me every Wednesday to talk shop and invited me to join a small group that she leads on Sunday afternoons where I can meet more people. When I first started going to the church I very quickly introduced myself to the Pastor and upon hearing I was recently separated he asked if I'd like to get together and meet with him sometime, we set up a meeting and we had a great chat about my spiritual journey, his church, my doubts about Christ and the remnants of my crappy life. He and I have agreed to meet again soon to have a second round. I also signed up for and went to the church Welcome lunch for newcomers, although on that day I really wanted to curl up in a ball and die on my living room floor (it was the anniversary of my separation), and I met a lovely Filipino family who saved me and my family a place at their table for lunch. So again, it's all about pushing yourself and when you do, good things will happen. I also empathize with your frustration with those who are supposed to be setting Christian examples of fellowship. I work for a Christian organization and when I began to tell people of my new church going ways not one christian ever bothered to drop by and say "hey, welcome aboard. What church do you go to" Nobody! Both women who have been a disappointment to me since my separation are both Christians. So I believe it was Paul who said that at times even when he wanted to do good, he did bad! I think part of the whole Jesus thing is realizing that we're all a bunch of f@ck ups but we gotta love each other anyway Sol, you WILL find the church that's right for you...sermon over!
