If it's the same fear that I felt; it would be the fear of losing the person that I thought I was in love with. But it turns out I was fearful of losing the dream of a perfect family. She cannot provide the perfect family, so really maybe I feared losing me; because my identity was lost to being a husband/father. There was no real me. It was all tied up into being with her; so if I lost her, then I lost me.
Now I've found me and I'm much happier. The door's not closed on reconciliation but the ball is in her court. She better serve fast!!
