Nah did not shave my head in the end. i have a lovely new color and a nice style. Strange man in the street said ' nice hair " He was about 70
I am really suffering at the moment. I feel so rejected and sick. H took D16 and D18 to guy fawkes display last night ( something i love ) and then out for dessert. I did not mind that though. Made myself scarce on pik up and drop off. He did not come in.
My heart really does ache. Will this go away so that i can feel confident on direction and dbing. I want to close my shop and just go home to sleep to escape all these thoughts and feelings and pain. i have been taking 1/2 sleeping pill each night to knock myself out.
I have accepted invitation to cocktail night next eeek and BBQ so am doing more stuff as single. Hate it. Want my H back but I know that if I was to resume contact I would make no progress on either my M or myself. Where do I find the strength?
