I don't really know that I am holding on. It's weird...I can not get mad at her and we all know that I have ample reason. If I can't figure it out, she probably can not either. What I need is to jumpstart my system. I have not found a way to do it yet. Perhaps I just need a little more time....I don't really know. Maybe it is just loneliness. Maybe it's this damn sun settting way too early up here. I will pickup D7 right after school. Maybe she can get me out of my funk. Imagine that, I am relying on a 7 year old to give me a boost. Shouldn't I be the rock in her life?
