Your feelings are all normal. I remember saying that....Loving someone shouldn't be this hard. Believe me, Dash, marriage is hard work. You DO have the strength to do this. It's not over. Lean on the people here. We want you to keep your marriage. People in the outside world will tell you to dump her. YOur son deserves a happy family to live with and if she comes out of her fog, you can create that.