Hi all, just came from my meeting where H attends. It was very difficult today. H looked totally distracted and he is so bloated and looks so stressed. It is the worst I ever saw of him. If this is what is "making him happy", I don't want any of it. I caught him looking at me a bunch of times and then I would look over at him and he would look away. I sat in the meeting and was praying to God to give me strength. At one point I think my eyes filled up with tears. I looked away very quickly but I think H caught it. Here I am in a meeting with 10 men a cheating H and me. The meeting went over and H said he had to leave for another meeting. He says goodbye to me and whatever possessed me I said "call me", H says ok. Now I don't know why I told him that. I think I just miss talking to him. I am waiting a 1/2 hour and texting him to say "never mind I don't need to talk to you". Let him figure it out. It is like he is becoming a stranger to me. Hate it.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
