Trying2Live-Post #3

[faithrunner]

Marisol, I am in the exact same mindset you are. I had a bad Sunday and Monday (you can see from earlier posts on this thread). I really feel like I'm at my breaking point. I didn't even realize I had one, until I reached it.

So, I sat back and thought about H and the person he is and was. He has always run from family relationships, friends, and jobs. The only people he has fostered a real connection with are our sons (thankfully). No other adult connections and as soon as the job gets bad - he jumps. So what makes me think that he could be 100% different if he came back? And, I feel really good about the person I am now, just like you do. I had the very same thought - I will love him forever, but he is not the best person for me.

Don't get me wrong, he used to be a great guy. Very kind, generous. He would refuse to watch talk shows that had any hint of infidelity theme in them. Now his EA is the one he wants to be with forever. MLC is a terrible thing. I look at him and I don't even recognize the man he is today.

I have decided to DB for me. It is healing and keeps me motivated and positive. I also put my faith in God that he is doing a good work both in me and H, so that peace shines through me. These traits may draw back my H, and I would welcome a new relationship with him. If not, I still love the person I've become.

LOL, ask me tomorrow and I may tell you something completely different:)