I can totally understand and empathize with the wanting it done > YESTERDAY way of thinking as WE have been waiting for years, ( or however long in everyone's circumstance ) and they finally get on board and were thinking, OK>> Wheres the change, I need it now! It is VERY difficult to take that step back and take a breath........ so
.............. breath............. one two
However I do agree with everyone here, and feel horrible for you. So sorry it seems to be so hard. I will say this, and pardon me for saying this. BUT......... I think you should still follow through with your year plan though. ( just my opinion ) Because I think right now is a rough patch, and if I am reading you right, I think for YOU, you need to follow thru with it, so if and when it does end, you will be able to walk away with no regrets. And maybe, just maybe, it will get better, and those baby steps will get bigger. Maybe time for another little heart to heart in the form of a letter. Seemed to work last time, maybe she's like my H, and needs that for the first baby steps... just another thought.
