So last night we talked about splitting things up and the conversation turned to what she was walking away from the marriage with as far as wisdom goes. She said a few things but she missed a lot. I told her how her criticism made me feel over the years and it made me feel terrible and that I wasn't capable of doing anything right. She didn't know and she said she was sorry for that but they were just suggestions. I told her they were suggestions TO HER but to the man it is received as criticism and it make my confidence dwindle and all that. She said she was sorry and then we talked about some other stuff and then went to bed.
She slept with my daughter again. I was up around 5am and she came down around 5:30am. She was crying. I asked what was wrong and she said all of this. She is upset that we're doing all this. To make a long story short, we talked about splitting up some stuff and then I told her that I was going to cancel her cell phone since she now has her own. She said she didn't even use it and that she didn't know how to get out of the contract. So I called Verizon Wireless and helped her get through that. She said she would return it today since it is within the 30 days.
Then she kept going on about what was best for the kids and she said that she wanted to feel independant and happy, etc. I told her that we can talk about the changes that we need to make in our lives and that I thought that if she left she would miss out on the best of me now that I've done a 180. I also told her that if she wants what is best for the kids we need to be adults here and try to step back a bit and try to be friends and work things out between us.
Then out of the blue she told me that she changed the password and credit card number on the game account because she was afraid that I was going to take it away from her. She didn't have to tell me this. I think this is a sign of trust. I wouldn't do that anyways, but I am happy that she opened up a bit to me and told me that. I told her that we can move the computer up to her room tonight so that she can have some space and that we should take it easy for a while. I told her that she should think about it today and see what she thinks about that. I have no idea what will happen but I'm doing everything I can to give us time. I told her that I will always love her and that I can fill the void that she has and I hope she can find it to allow me to do so.
So at least she let me help her with her cell phone and she was going to cancel it. If she did that, that means she doesn't really intend on leaving. ..and that she told me she changed the game account info was something that she didn't have to tell me at all. So I hope that I'm reading that correctly that it is a sign of trust and that she knows that I won't hurt her.
Only time will tell. I'll update on how tonight goes.
